Recapitulation as a technique

One of the interesting basic techniques that a Toltec warrior has in his arsenal is to recapitulate your entire life, to feed a copy of yourself to ‘The Eagl

In Castaneda’s books, the technique is described quite simply and extremely as someone who buries himself alive and from that darkness has to recapitulate his entire life from moment to moment.

That is a possibility that might indeed be used by warriors who want to quickly and effectively leave this planet behind to jump to another dimension – on the other hand, you might also see in it a kind of toxic macho behaviour, in which extremity prevails over sensitivity. I have no judgment about it; if you want to bury yourself and make the ultimate summary, do it that way.

I myself prefer to practise a moderate version of this technique, by mapping out my life better bit by bit. There is something I call ‘mapping the original impulse’. The crux of this mapping is the question: Why? In my case, for example: Why did you start writing poetry?

Now you must understand that the psyborg that is installed in everyone by society/school uses something I call ‘the story ego’, which is a kind of ego that creates your life story and therefore your memories. Essentially this is an extension of the parasite: you do not remember your real life, but a false copy that the psyborg has stored as a series of summaries.

As long as your life is a false copy, you will be feeding your own lack of freedom

So the key is to re-map your whole life, bit by bit. You will then probably discover that you are not a victim at all, that every event in your life was consciously created by yourself. My own recapitulation of the original impulse to write poetry is a good example.

I initially went through life with the idea that I started writing poems because of a girl in my class. I had written a poem for that girl, who didn’t understand a jot of it, and that lack of understanding motivated me to want to do better.

Initially, that was my story. Later, while recapitulating, I noticed that the impulse was much more multifaceted. Wait a minute, but what about Carlos Castaneda’s books, which I devoured like water during my adolescence and in which Don Juan displayed such enormous respect for the power of poetry? Hold on, but what about Annie MG Schmidt, your favourite book during childhood, Het fluitketeltje? Wait a minute, what about KRS one/BDP, did you not play that song ‘Poetry’ on your 14th birthday?

‘the beat may drop but not like all the others’

A peculiar mixture of impulses, but what matters here is the falsity of the story manufactured by the narrative ego. No, I was not the victim of some girl in my class. I got impulses from other warriors: Annie, KRS-One and Don Juan.

Yvon was just the last part of it. The summary didn’t make any sense, and yet that was ‘my life story’.

That’s why I had to adapt my website again. KRS-One is the teacher, the real teacher between all those false teachers, bad teachers. A warrior of stature this man, who knew how to earn my respect and whom I have been following since my fourteenth birthday. His energy is impeccable, and that is so because by being impeccable he managed to gain personal power. What system he followed to get there is of little consequence, to me anyway – he will have to chart his own course into details.

Mountains, giants and mushrooms – in this fairytale-like collection, magic whirls and swirls, yet another reality breaks through as well – the whole world turned into The Shining, and the pilgrimage to Szymborska’s grave, a simple stone in Krakow, fails at the last minute; a journey without check marks across sixteen national borders to his daughter, however, succeeds. In its combination of fairy-tale nature, historical background and eerily topical reality, this collection of poems is Benders’ best since he lost count.


You have no time to read this, but that is because you are no longer human. If something of the original person were still alive in you, the old mycelia of childhood, then you would learn a lot from this book, indeed, with its magical knowledge, it might become your most useful possession. A book about the human imagination, and how it managed to get into the iron grip of trans-dimensional cockroaches. Furthermore, there are also magical tips to substantially improve your life and your time acceleration, and M.H.H. Benders also makes light-hearted mincemeat of the entire Dutch literature, what more could you want!

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The first collected work of Martinus Hendrikus Hogervorst-Benders comprises no fewer than 712 pages and weighs in at least 1.4 kilos in thin print. It is the most ambitious collection written in the last thirty years, and certainly one of the highlights of Dutch literature as a whole, in line with Snoek and van de Woestijne. Anyone with a heart for literature and who wants to read an ambitious book brimming with cast-iron poems instead of yet another typical Dutch-language ‘masterpiece’ will be delighted with the purchase of this brick.

The Microdose Bible is the worlds most comprehensive and complete oversight of mind altering substances, teacher plants and mushrooms. Dutch mycologist and philosopher M.H.H.Benders takes you on a magical journey full of wonder about what teachers nature has to offer. Includes the Psychosupersum, a guide that describes all known mental disorders and offers wisdom for their treatment. 

This book will be published end of 2022.