Open letter to Paul Hudson, aka H.R. of the Bad Brains

Dear Paul Hudson,

I am writing to express the profound impact that your music and energy has had on my life. As a white guy from the projects in Helmond, it may seem unlikely that your music would reach me, but I believe that this is proof of the magical nature of energy.

Growing up, my family was cursed with illness caused by industrial waste in our community. My mother was even beaten by religious nuns for speaking out about the injustices we faced. It was a difficult and tumultuous upbringing, to say the least.

But despite these challenges, your music and energy provided me with a sense of hope and inspiration. Your unyielding spirit and determination in the face of adversity served as a role model for me, showing me that it is possible to rise above even the most difficult circumstances.

To many, your unconventional and rebellious nature may have seemed like craziness. But to me, it was simply a manifestation of your true being, unencumbered by the expectations and limitations placed upon you by society. Your authenticity and fearlessness in the face of criticism was a beacon of light in a world that can often be dark and oppressive.

Your music has been a source of solace and joy for me, and I am deeply grateful for the ways in which it has shaped my life. It has helped me to see the world in a different light, and to understand that the universe is primarily made up of energy – an energy that can be harnessed and channeled for good.

Thank you for all that you have done, and for the immeasurable impact that your music and energy has had on my life. You will always be a role model and an inspiration to me.

It would be a great honor to me if you would read my latest collection of poetry: Poetry to Read in the Dark. I will give it to you for free right here:

Poetry to Read in the Dark (2022) (1136 downloads)


If it manages to touch you somehow, that would be such a great accomplishment in my eyes.

Let me, once more, thank you for the inspiration and your wonderful music which helped me through my life.

Kind regards,

Martijn Benders


No, no: I am not a 'guru' of some sorts: I'm just a guy that happened to be succesful at fighting of the addictions dystopia had blessed me with.

Now I am devoting my time to helping others as a mycotherapist.

I know a lot about mushrooms and I have devised methods of employing them in your diet that will help your physical and emotional wellbeing.

If you experience problems and you think I might be able to help you, please go to my contact page and let's have a chat.

I wrote a book titled 'Amanita Muscaria: The Book of the Empress'. That book presents 'the big picture', the one you've perhaps been missing out on. It is the story of what really happened with humanity the last 1000 years, and how wild mushrooms came to be demonized, and how Amanita Muscaria/ Fly Agaric can help you regain your true self and at the same time make this planet a better place for everyone.

The book can be bought at regular dutch bookstores and soon at international bookstores too. And to be complete: you can also buy it from me directly using crypto. Just donate an amount of crypto to me that would equal about 33 euros and I will send you a signed copy:

If you want to donate me some crypto to help my cause (fighting the benzodiazepine epedemic) your contribution would also be most welcome.

I am also known as a writer and a poet. As of 2023 I have written about 18 books. Lots of them are available for free from my homepage: I have never been much of a kapitalist, and I believe that good poetry has a healing effect on people.

Drop me a line if you want to ask me something or collaborate on anything. I wish you a great life, and lots of luck and great guidance on the path you are walking.