Worthstool and the battle against fear

What is an anxiety disorder?

What exactly is an ‘anxiety disorder’? What exactly do people who have an ‘anxiety disorder’ feel and, more importantly, what causes this phenomenon?

We can say with certainty that babies and young children do not suffer from an ‘anxious voice’ in their heads that is always present and always causing stress.

So where does this voice come from and how does it arise?

I must again point to the most stressful time in a person’s life, puberty. The predator system deliberately turns your whole social environment upside down just when your body is starting to change, a way of pulling the rug out from under your young feet. The enormous amount of stress this causes does not have a favourable effect on the brain mycelia: they go into shock and reflexively start shrinking, after which a constellation forms around a generator that – and here it comes – always translates physical and ideological discomfort as a lack of one’s own mind.

The voice of fear. You are not good enough. You probably don’t know. Do you contribute to a shitty world? Well, there is no choice, everyone does it. > So that voice.

That voice rules over a shrunken piece of mycelia in which the attention is spinning around. If we want to change this situation, we first have to understand what regular psychiatry does.


They give you drugs, in this case probably antidepressants, antipsychotics or benzodiazepines – drugs that make life more bearable for you because they mask the ‘voice’. It’s a bit more in the background now, and so you can live a bit more comfortably. But it’s not a real solution, you know that, I know that, and even the psychiatrist knows that.

To make mycelia grow again, however, you need very different substances. The body has hundreds of receptor networks and our modern society is completely organised in such a way that man functions in an eternal serotonin/dopamine deficit, so that he always has to seek his pleasure and entertainment in external substances.

These two networks are dominant in modern man, but there are also older, dormant networks. By activating such networks you change the whole game. In your case, you may have been anxious all your adult life, and you may even identify yourself as ‘that voice’, you think it is you, but it is not at all, it is a parasitic entity.
a parasitic entity.

To disarm this entity, you have to get out of the short-circuited serotonin/dopamine circuits – by activating the much older muscarinic receptor network with Amanita Muscaria, you awaken a kind of primal force in yourself that will bring assertiveness, wakefulness, sharpness and spiritual stillness.


When the old mycelia can make contact again with the cramped part where your attention was stuck, actual healing can take place because the cramping dissolves and the brain mycelia light up as usual and the false parasitic generator simply disappears as an illusion.

So activation is the way to go, not anaesthesia.

There is something the parasitic entities are trying to prevent. Mind expansion. They do not like that at all, for they exist by the grace of contraction. Contortion is their core business, as it were.

When you suffer from fears, psychedelics are often a step too far, because they can actually magnify the fears.

The mother lode, however, does not do that, as long as you use it in small quantities. It is a drug that will awaken another voice in you, a voice you have forgotten.


There is a certain lie that prevails in the human community. What is this lie? Well, the idea that our senses are not capable of the things that other animals’ senses are capable of.

Yes, that is true now. But that is:

  • Thanks to a short circuited brain.
  • Thanks to zero point zero training of the senses.
  • Thanks to a psyborg entity that blocks real learning.

Imagine what it would be like to go through life with the senses of a wolf. Great when you’re in the woods. But in the city? Hell on earth!

So the chopping off of the senses was the only way to make man live together in such an organised way, because living with full/full senses was simply unbearable under such conditions.

What is the complaint with which psychiatry is most often approached? That’s right. My life is unbearable.

Known as Xee-PArX SHKLot FAKRK I was minding my own business s a benovalent(1) ruler over an autonomous but relevant section of the Gamma-tertia quadrant of a galaxy, when an interdimensional hackhole zapped me into this dimension, where I have to deal with 'humans' who talk about 'reptiles' and 'lizards' and they have not got the faintest clue what they are talking about. It does not sound very inclusive at all!

The identity M.H.H. Benders is a most recognised poet of his generation, a student of the universal mycelia,  Amanita Sage and party leader of the Dutch 'Woudpartij'. He wrote sixteen books, the last ones at the Kaneelfabriek (Cinnamon Factory). He is currently working on 'SHHHHHHROOM a book on mushrooms and the Microdose Bible, which is an activation plan to restore your true identity coming next year. Keep in touch! But only if we do it first.

(1) not a typo! These humans have never even SEEN the mercy of a supernova.